Graduation is upon us my dear friends.

This isn't the end of our lives, it is but the beginning of a story yet unknown. Saturday is my graduation. Today we had Graduation practice...Tears were shed, and even more are going to be shed I can guarantee it. It's sad and depressing for some and happy and joyful for others. For me though...It's both. After graduation I'm going to Colorado for college, leaving Texas and my friends behind to find what I want to do with my life and what I'm about and who I am. It's going to be a long journey and I can't wait for it, but at the same time I'm leaving behind the people that have helped shape me, helped save me, helped me in so many ways that it's unbelieveable. Graduation seemed so far away and now it seems like it's tomorrow. Please tell me...Where has the time gone? I still remember the days when playing with hula hoops and jump ropes were fun during the summer. When Sailor Moon and Pokemon took up our afternoons and weekends, and rockstars, popstars, firemen, and astronauts were the in jobs to have. Now, it just seems like, Where are you going after you graduate? What are you going to do with your life? And you realize that you will never become a rockstar, a popstar, a fireman or an astronaut. You realize that you need an actual real job. I don't know if I'm actually ready for this little step, or should I say, A giant leap of faith into the world unknown...All I have to say is: "This isn't the end of our lives, it is but the beginning of a story yet unknown."

Who knew I could take such pretty pictures. (Austin, TX)

Hate is such a strong word and I must admit that I use it wrong.

Two days ago on facebook I made a huge mistake. I told all of facebook about how much I hated my mom. As soon as I posted it I regretted it, but stupid me didn't erase it. I had planned to erase it soon, but then I started vomiting, and I'm sorry, but when I'm busy trying not to vomit all over myself it's kinda hard to think about anything else. Yeah, Monday night and Tuesday I was vomiting all over the bathroom with what mama said was a stomach Virus. So anyways, I should have deleted it when I was feeling a little better after throwing up, but all I wanted to do was sleep because I had not slept the night before. I'm an idiot. I know that. I'm a disgrace to my family. I know that too. And being a disappointment to the family? I know that one too. I don't even know why they keep me around anymore to be honest. I mean, I'm never nice to any of them, all we ever do anymore is fight and it's always my dumb ass starting it. But yes, That facebook post was a mistake. I hurt someone that I love very much. I was mad at the time, I hated her for all of five minutes. I quickly got over it though, and I know that I should have deleted it, but I didn't and I'm sorry. Mama, If you're reading this, I know you probably don't care because you're mad at me. But this is coming from the bottom of my heart. I don't know how else to tell you that I'm horribly sorry for saying what I did. I'm a horrible daughter and I'm sorry. I just wish you'd forgive me. I hate when people are mad at me, especially you and daddy. When you two are mad at me, it just makes me feel like the worst person to ever live on this planet. This is my apology letter...I hope you accept it, but if you don't then I'll understand.
Mama...I don't hate you. I really don't. I love you. And I'm sorry.
:/